seriously, am I the only person who wants to punch themself in the face sometimes? I need to go home and figure some stuff out.
fuckin' eggs in a basket.
i wanna go home for a day or two.
Learn to play violin
Take voice lessons
Smoke weed
Get engaged romantically
Get married
Have kids (Jack, Isabella)
Go to the Cape
AMANDA IS EATING NILLA WAFERS!!!! MANY!!!!!!!!!
PRAISE THE LORD AND HALLELUJAH!!!
GOOD JOB, AMANDA!
i was strolling along the old dock one day
when i saw a dark object start to head my way.
being my mother's daughter
i watched it through the water
which rippled and waved through the murky bay.
what is it? i thought, as i peered and stared.
It began to grow larger, and then I got scared!
it was rising up higher
and my need was very dire
to find out what this blob was, 'cause I really cared.
the blob was now darker and as close as can be
to the surface of the water that was right below me.
my lip began to quiver
and my bones began to shiver
as a nostril popped out of the salty grimy sea.
I had never seen a nostril pop out in such a way
as the oversized hole that came out of that bay.
what's more, there wasn't one.
only one? we'd just begun!
As another nostril peered out like a bad toupee.
One nostril, two nostrils, whiskers, snout and head.
I remembered a story I had read one night before bed.
this animal had looked
like the one in my book!
But what was its name? My mind began to tread.
Was it a sea horse? No, not like the guy in Finding Nemo.
Was it a sea monkey? Maybe, but I don't think those are real, though.
Then my mind began to click on,
like my light began to flick on.
My gears began to turn and I was thinking like a real pro.
It was a giant happy sea cow, also known as manatee!
and its big brown happy eyes were staring up at me.
It was playful and fun
and had only just begun
To splash the warm water all around in that sea.
of course nobody wanted to go out all night last night,
as grads often do (you know, the culmination of all the stress relief you've ever needed throughout all of high school in its entirety).
they all already had plans for a sleepover tonight! duhhhh.
You know they say it gets darker at night but i tend to see things more clearly.
I'm pretty sure no one reads my blog.
man oh man have i got so much inside of me
that someones gonna try to talk to me or something
and i'm gonna tell them all and exactly what's on my mind
and i'm gonna burn the bridges a little bit more or a ltitle bit faster or a little bit sooner than i had intended
or a LOT
and I worry about that, cause I don't want to fuck myself over too (like I need another person doing that. honestly, like anybody needs anybody doing that.)
boy do i feel destructive.
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goals
blog more angst out
write
practice spanish
fuck shit
see tezzy all the time
see stratford guys more often
be good to only those who are good to me